I leave in 2 days for the west coast for 2 weeks.
I am broke as it is, and will be SUPA broke when i return.
Im going to have to only spend money when its imperative, but im usually good at that, thankfully haha.
Im soo excited to see melissa and dad. Ive missed them so much, and i cant wait to see how HUGE buster is, and to run around with darla and chapps :].
Keith from Waffles has been in contact with us[b & i], as well.
Hes schedualed a photoshoot for me and her on sunday with fingers crossed, that Im really excited for. Ive wanted to meet the photographer for a long time. Keith also has shirts for us, and im going to talk to him about the collaboration project that we have been wanting to do together. My designs and his company. Sounds rad, right!

Kyle wrote a song about me.
Its amazing. I didnt even know he was in a band until last night.
I listened to all of the songs on their page, and theyre all really really good. especially for only having 2 band mates.
I hope i get to hang out with him while im over there.
that'd just be grand.

If any of my real friends want to hang out tonight, just give me a call.
Im sure ill be here, bored.

lovelove
christine

So today along with deciding to do the 30 day juice fast, i planned a trip to texas in march for south by south west to see adam, and everyone else.

Im going to post-pone my 30 day juice fast until after I get back from california.
I leave thursday the 24th and get back february 7th.

Then Ashley called and said she wants to see me when I get back, so Ive got to find a way to get out to her. haha. I miss her soooo dearly.

then, get this! the best news ever!!
a good good friend of mine jamie, messaged me to ask me or invite me out to london this summer to do some art stuff! thats all i want to say about it now, just because, but it looks like ill be going to london in the begining of july for awhile! im really excited. blake lives up there too, and it will be great living close to him, hes such a great friend.

anyways.
today has been somewhat of a productive day for me, and im happy.
my mom made me chicken and dumplings to eat, which were the besttttt!
me and bryson ate some cookie dough. and right now im drinking a sprite haha.
goin all out.

stay healthy for 2008!!!!

it is snowing outside, you guys. its snowing!!!

my camera is being a bitch and wont upload anything off of it, but i have so many pictures to show people.
i made a new private myspace.
ill only be adding people i know and that i talk to on a daily basis.

happy snow day!!!!!!!!


and whyyyyyyyyyy is my journal being so gay and doing the wrong dates? wtf is goingon?
im so confused!

ugggg
youre WEEEEIIIRRRRDDDDDDD
AND awkward.

Its back. The blonde mop, that is...
after two and a half damn days of rense & repeat.
really, my hair has always been a trooper.
thank you "god" for that.
also, thank you sarah clark for being a damn hair angel and sitting and painting with & for me through the last 2.5 days of hell.
cant wait for our fort slash pajama sleepover party.
i think blake will be more excited than us, actually.
you may want to invite him.
i wanna rent the are you afraid of the dark seasons lol.

o0o i invented a new mixed drink tonight;
corazon tequila and grape koolaid.
NOT even lyin. that shit is riiiight.
i give it 5 stars, of course.
bryson liked it, too.

anywho-
great talks last night, aswell as tonight.
Happy 25th birthday, Willy bones.
you've come a long way, and it was great to see you so happy tonight.

ryan will be here tonight at 7:30.
were going back to lazer tag on saturday.
hahahaha. so much fun, such a work out though.

ive been washing lots now,
and actually started excersizing every other night before bed, and after bed.
pilatees is a blessing in disguise,
and im so glad i chose to take it every year of high school when i was in high school.
my back disease will be sooo much better once my body becomes familiar with stretching, and being stretched and flexible in a couple of weeks.
after new years it got so bad that me and my mom seriously thought i may have had to get surgery.
i wore heels all night that night, and the next morning i couldnt walk.
i was collapsing, and getting stuck, literally- stuck in positions.
i had to have help to sit and to stand back up from sitting.
it was so scary to me.
i had just finished my 2 day come down off of acid i had ate earlier that week,
and kelly was telling me once about how that shit can fuck your back forever... so i was kind of delierious, and expecting bad things to happen to me, and i really did, truely, honestly, sweared n shit thought that was the last time i would walk. i really thought that from that day on, i would be paralyzed from the lower spine, down.
we went to dinner at my grand mothers house, to eat all of the good luck food for a good fresh new year, and i cried the entire time, silently, but dramatically.
i couldnt eat, i could barely talk because of how deep of breaths i was having to take to even keep myself from shreekingly yelling from pain. and still, this whole time, i was STILL in the back of my mind, feeling like i KNEW that this was it, my last day, of being able to walk around on my own. feeling like from then on out, id be wheeled, and carried around for ever. i was devestated, and so scared. not to mention hung over as hell, and on the last 3 day span of an acid trip come down.
and ive typed SO much on this ONE little subject, but i still feel like you guys will most likely never have this experience in your life.
i mean after this night, i started taking my protinazone pills to try to help the inflamation on my bottom 5 spinal discs, as well as basically being attached to a heating pad like it was a second skin all night.
really, if youre still reading- think about this.
you know when you were in elementary school, middle school even/maybe/still, and there are the classes for the mentally challenged, or handicapped, or theres a guy at your school that cant walk right... you NEVER think that something like that would ever happen to you, did you? i sure as helllllll didnt. I was a fucking banshee, i did some of the stupidest shit, almost jabbed my eye out with a walking stick once, fell down brick stairs on my back with roller skates on, etc, etc, things of that nature... but while i was doing all of that shit, even after i woke up from concusions, or gained back my conciousness, i didnt think i would be hurt forever after that... i'd just brush it off. its so weird that after growing up like that, thinking like that, and this time, the next day actually NOT being able to walk ONE STEP without completely collapsing, it was just a huge slap in the face and i needed it.
i actually want to start excersizing now, and eating healthier. im just happy that im at a point in my life where i actually take note of shit like that, and im so glad.
goddd i ramble like no other.

anyways, if youre still reading my bible of an entry,
tomorrow i have plans.
i have to shop. HAVE TO.
i need more things to send B and Drake, and i want to collect a cuple of things, myself.
i plan on stopping at hong kong, st josephs, bead lush, cheap joes, value villiage and binders.
me and bryson, justin & will also want to go get tattoos.
theyre getting "those dudes" cheast pieces.
i think i may get an anchor on the back of my left arm, right above my elbom.

i drew a picture of 7 different peoples faces on one sheet of paper tonight.
its sort of trippy.
ive been practicing drawing cats, so that i can start painting lyles portrait when hes hanging out with me all of the time.

i text talked with a bunch of my Texan friends today. i really want to go to SXSW[south by south west] this year, i think it would be a blast, especially since gazelles are supposively playing during it this year, and ive only heard but crazy, & awesome fun stories about austin trips, so im soooo down~!
i want to try to go to coachella too.
ive never even been to a music festival before,
not even warped thing. isnt that weird?
mehhh. oh well.

i talked to luke this morning, too.
i miss him a lot, i love his company.
i feel like hes probably ONLY talking to me
is because my hair is blonde again, haha.
shot dowwwwn... but not really.
and who cares anyways.

oh!-
i just want to give a shout out to clay-fed.
he told me the other night that enjoyed reading my l-journal,
so i thought it was the least i could do.
brush your hair extra long for me today, patrick bateman.
:]]]

anywho, im gonna get off the computer, its giving me a headache.


by the way-
if any of you can tell me about portland oregon, anything, experiences, etc... id love it.
ive been thinking of visiting recently., so comment and tell me about it!


tah-tah
luella loon

In a foreign place, the saving grace was the feeling,
That it was a heart that he was stealing,
Oh he was ready to impress and the fierce excitement,
The eyes are bright he couldnt wait to get away,
I bet the juliet was just the icing on the cake,
Make no mistake no,

And even if somehow we could have shown you the place you wanted,

Well I'm sure you could have made it that bit better on your own,
And I bet she told a million people that she'd stay in touch,
Well all the little promises they dont mean much,
When theres memories to be made,
And I hope you're holding hands by new years eve,
They made it far too easy to believe,
That true romance cant be acheived these days,

And even if somebody could have shown you the place you wanted,
Well I sure you could have made it that bit better on your own,
You are the only ones who know

one of my new years resolutions is to read more.
do any of you have any that you could send me??

Velvet Underground - Rock and Roll Music

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VELVET UNDERGROUND

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i wrote a new poem.
its on my myspace blog.


here is the link for you lzy internet lurkers:
http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendID=156372256&blogID=344201891


today has just been a stupendously great day!
no complaints!

melissa called me some hours ago.
shes probably the funniest person ive ever known besides bryson and ashley.
i love everything about her. she has been growing SO much lately, it blows my mind!
i went thru the same thing last year, but i wasnt watching myself do it.
to see and hear and realize someone else who is ACTUALLY making changes in their life, changes as big as she is going through is just pure motivation for me now a days. i want to one day be living as happy and loved as she is. and i think since im such a good person that will come to me.
of course it will take time, probably a couple of years... but in my opinion, having someone like B has that visually, mentally, pysically and sociably shows their love for me every day seems worth it... she deserves it, though. she is one of the sweetest people i have ever met in my whole LIFE. anytime i have a problem she is there. I love knowing that when im there for my friends and they realize it that they will always be there for me when i need them aswell. it feels sooo good to know im making someone feel the way they make me feel.
i want that for the rest of my life.
i just want true people to encounter. true friends to spend time with. and real people to meet on the side and to eventually get close to.


bleeeeh
im rambling...
figured i would since i havent "really" updated here in a while.
hope everyones holidaze were great.
mine were.
i miss everyone.
tilllllll neeexxxttt time i update-
chao!

spleenmeatx: lol i ly
feel like flying: ily more
spleenmeatx: no you dont
feel like flying: mmhmm
spleenmeatx: shut that mouth!
spleenmeatx: im kinda drunl
feel like flying: i talk about it basically everyday
feel like flying: lol
spleenmeatx: lol :]
feel like flying: goddddd i love him
spleenmeatx: lol!
feel like flying: im serious!!
spleenmeatx: i know!!!
spleenmeatx: i want to find a boy to love who i know is loving me back
spleenmeatx: a boy that buys me jewelry because of how much he loves me
feel like flying: awww yea
feel like flying: me too
spleenmeatx: hopefully one day well get our turn too
feel like flying: i hope so :/
spleenmeatx: we are good people
spleenmeatx: it will happen sooner or later
feel like flying: i really hope so
feel like flying: having a boy who i like and who likes me and being in a nice relationship is one of my new years resolutions
feel like flying: lol
spleenmeatx: if you believe it will happen you can and will make iut happen!!
feel like flying: yea...we are pretty girls...i dont know why i have so much trouble
spleenmeatx: it because in the end it will all be worth it
feel like flying: i hope youre right
feel like flying: i want wine
spleenmeatx: godddd come over
feel like flying: i knowwww
feel like flying: i miss you soooo fucking much
spleenmeatx: i cant even let you know how much i miss you unless i was with you
feel like flying: soon love
feel like flying: im coming down as soon as i can
feel like flying: or maybe we can go somewhere together!
spleenmeatx: thsat would be so fun
feel like flying: yea
spleenmeatx: imma try to find a nice boy in california when i go up there.
spleenmeatx: theres got to be SOMEONE you know?
spleenmeatx: i mean its worth sa chance/? or am i worng?
spleenmeatx: i know ium durnk
spleenmeatx: lol
feel like flying: lol
feel like flying: i dunno
feel like flying: id like to think so
feel like flying: you are beautiful
feel like flying: and the nicest girl ive ever met
spleenmeatx: :]
feel like flying: its true
feel like flying: and im sure lots of people feel that way

these are from last night... you can see my ankle circle tattoo in them too!
happy 2008, all~!


over & over, it happens again.
never before, but always at the end.
no one knows until passing the bend
by that time its far too close to the end.
but maybe its not "the end."
its just yet another bend-
to prepare you and i
for the times
you have to come in the long trek of life.



i miss gina & ryan,
and a few other people that im too
afraid to mention...

i like it quite a lot.

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Brian,
Top marks for not tryin'
So kind of you to bless us with your effortlessness
We're grateful and so strangely comforted

And I wonder are you puttin' us under
Cause we can't take our eyes off the t-shirt and ties combination
Well see you later, innovator

Some want to kiss some want to kick you
There's not a net you couldn't slip through
Or at least that's the impression I get cause you're smooth and you're wet
And she's not aware yet but she's yours

She'll be sayin' use me
Show me the jacuzzi
I imagine that it's there on a plate
Your rendezvous rate means that you'll never be frightened to make them wait for a while
I doubt it's your style not to get what you set out to acquire
The eyes are on fire
You are the unforecasted storm

Calm, collected, and commandin'
You make the other stories standin'
With your renditions and jokes
Bet there's hundreds of blokes that have wept cause you've stolen their ...thunder
Are you puttin' us under

Cause we can't take our eyes off the t-shirt and ties combination
Well see you later, innovator

animal collective - sung tongs, feels, & strawberry jam
hot chip - the warning, & made in the dark
MGMT - oracular spectacular
arctic monkeys - favorite worst nightmare
outkast - ATLiens
tapes n tapes - tapes n tapes

:]

set of 50 aurora water color pallets
some things from avon. new makeup brushes, etc. [it was time.]
ordered some souvigneirs for melissa and drakes package.


a new great scarf, and an awesome pair of leggings.


needed:
a 2008 planner
fish eye lomo camera
& new years plans.
anyone interested?

nathalia iddd loveee to see yoooouuu

merry xmas.
this year i told most of my family not to worry about getting me presents. i wish christmas was no longer about presents. presents make me feel awqkward... but i have presents for a lot of you that i actually know.
hypocrit tine.

tonight i think im going to try and fit into the bath tub and just stay in there for a couple hours. i havent taken a bath since we've lived here. before that even... ive been longer than the bathtub for a while, i guess.

i miss sarah. ://
and im starving. agggh.

im going to go make a grilled cheese and some tomato soup.
talk l8r.
bye

tonight wuz great

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great night!

GOD LYLE IS AS BIG AS A FUCKING OWL I SWEAR TO WHOEVER!





tonight i gave bryson a tattoo.

my first tAtt0o giving.
lol :]
besides the one i gave myself, of course. lolol. im laughing at the whole matter in depth, really...



hash is the best of me
the best of me is just now showing up.
wait for me, for ive always been a couple,
more than a couple steps behind..
i have too much on my mind to move.
let me stand still and paint the world for you
she said
she said
he said
we said
we liked the weather,
but i never
let you know that i thought
the breeze giving me goose bumps
excited me.


hmmm...
my brain's being quite swell right now...
to me at least... and now thats all that fucking matters to me.
i think that's probably the best thing i've ever come up with.
simple, i know... but look at me. what do you expect, really.
dreams dont come true that often.

some pics from recent:
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i love my fucking life.

my gypsy friend told me today that no one but myself could make my every day happy. fuck small bullshit. the only person that can make ME genuinely happy is ME!
i am 19 i am 19 see?
see? i told you.
the crab legs were bad,
but the future can be great.

i want to start going on a morning walk
what about the days when we used to talk?
i dont need a smile from a manican, i just want you to hold me in your hands.
and from the inside out, youve changed boy, you know you have.
dont make a good thing bad...
just let me hold YOU in MY hands.

me in 3 weeks.

what do you think?
I dont care. Im just doing it to d it.
New self projects are my favorite.

i think im wet.
seriously though- this is basically what i meed&have to do when i wake up and before i go to sleep from now on if i want to be able to bend down anymore. I think its a blesing in disguise, because Im going to hate stretxching, but once my body gets back in shape like it was in 9th, 10th, and 11th grade when i was doing pilatees everyday is goiong to be amazing.

.
..
...
ITS MY BIRTHDAY, YA'LL!

here are some pictures.
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I love, love it when you hang out here, with me. You dont even have to be right close by and beside me, not even in the same room, just here with me. I think I just honestly enjoy your presence & company and am comfortable most when YOURE around.

I love Sarah and Blake and Donald and Bryson and my brother and my momma and everyone else that came over tonight. really, this birthday has been sooo much better than my last, by far- all ready!
I need my close friends as of recent to call me tomorrow, because Im going to be having a dinner party at a resturant and I only can invite certain people because of the price, but please, if you want to come, CALL ME!

ALSO, close friends, Im sending you all a package for christmas. So contact me and give me your address.
this is what i love about my friends. they love me back, and they are encouraging. AND THEY BELIEVE IN ME. I love that more than anything. Im so greatful to have you all in my life.
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